Friendship? What a word that people use just as casual as they would with saying they love someone. Just as quickly they accepted you to be there friend, someone can come along and just say something and they believe them over you.
Yes, triggered I am. How many times was I accused of doing something that I never did or how many times was I accused that I was lying yet, they later found out in life that I never lied about anything.
I absolutely have no reason to lie to anyone. Let's just face the facts if the truth were known now.. as I sit here bawling thinking about what was just said to me.. maybe they were looking for a reason to have out of the friendship to begin with. If just a common person that you work with can say that I said something then be brave enough to let me confront them or at least if you claim to be my friend that you believe what I am telling you.
Fact is fact, I have never used the phrase "Bull shitting me." That isn't my in my dictionary of phrases to use and let's face it.. I'm from Boston and if I don't like someone or don't believe in something I am not going to waste my time talking or doing something I don't believe in.
However, no matter how hard this is.. no matter what I am feeling right now and crying doesn't matter because what lays underneath is just someone once again accusing me of something I said or did, yet don't have the courage to stand up to be accounted or allow me to face my accuser. How many others have felt this pain of such betrayal because you believed someone would never doubt you and what you say is truth?
Friendship.. is like a season it has a time and place. Friendship is a season like the winter or summer. Yet, in Autumn it is beautiful, then when Spring comes it is destroyed by the past of the things falling and new things beginning. When a person does not stand by you.. and can toss it away because they believe someone else, and can not give you the decency to face your accuser.. then that is when I start to mourn and say Good-bye because it was never a friendship to begin with.