Last year, I could not even stand the fact that I was going to be turning 40-Years-Old. Even the mere mention of my 40th birthday approaching, would leave me weeping. I can’t tell you why it was a challenge for me, it wasn't a big deal really. However, I suppose the reason that I did have such difficulty was because I found myself going threw a mid-life crisis. In reality, nothing major has changed in my life, I still have my life known as a Mother and a Wife. I am still trying to find out who I am as a person, trying to find out where I belong in this world, and still trying to solve what I am suppose to be doing with my life.
I found myself turning 41-Years-Old wasn't such a big deal. Really just another day, but people around me, family and friends, doing things that would let me know that they loved and cared about me as a human being. Most of the time, about 90% of the time, I would find myself dreading my birthday because in some manner at the end of the day, it was always made miserable and I would find myself wishing for the day to just end.
Yet, today and the days that followed would surprise me in many ways and this year, turning 41-Years-Old I believe to be one of the best birthdays that I have had in a very long time. I found myself laughing a lot, really laughing, not those make believe laughs, when you are trying to fool everyone around you that you are happy when inside all you want to do is break down and cry. I found myself actually having a great time. Even at work, I found myself with my Co-Workers, also a few that I consider a friend, would find myself not caring that I had to work on my birthday. After all, a lot of us have to work on our birthdays, right???
Realistically, it is just a number that we have to state how many years we have on this earth. It really isn't a special time at all, except to celebrate your birth. It really does not matter to anyone else in the world how old you are, to them you are just a stranger and who cares if it is your birthday or not? Unless, of course, you are some sort of celebrity, then everyone in the world is suppose to rejoice with you on the day of your birth. In reality, if most of us were honest about it all, we would say, ”What does it matter, after all, they are just a person with a birthday like anyone else.” And in reality, that celebrity isn't anymore important than you or I... Everyone should be rejoicing with anyone that has a birthday, because YOU have made it another year in this big, bad world!!!
So, if today is your birthday... On November 21st.. I just want to say, “Happy Birthday, To You!”
*My Thoughts For Today*